'THOUGHTS'

I'M NOT A PERFECT GIRL, I SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND, I GET JEALOUS EASILY, I GET MAD ALWAYS, I'M DEMANDING, I'M MOODY.
BUT THERE ARE THREE (3) THINGS I LOVE ABOUT MYSELF.
I'M FAITHFUL
I'M SWEET,
AND WHEN I CHOOSE HIM IT'S ONLY HIM
NOTHIN' MORE, NOTHIN' LESS.

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I PRETEND TO BE HAPPY,
TALKING A LOT AND LAUGHING OUT LOUD
SO THAT NOBODY WOULD KNOW WHAT'S REALLY INSIDE
BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF ALL ALONE,
ENCOUNTERING THE CRUCIAL TRUTH
THAT I'M TOO BROKEN INSIDE AND NOT EVEN A MILLION LAUGHTER
CAN TAKE IT AWAY.
I'M IN PAIN SCALE OF 9, NEED SEDATIVES OR ANALGESICS
ONLY IF THERE ARE SUCH MEDICINES FOR EMOTIONS
I WOULD RATHER GET OVERDOSED AND DIE.

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IN MY LIFE, I NEVER TRIED TO IMPRESS SOMEONE FOR THEM TO LIKE ME
COZ' WHEN I DO, I WILL HAVE TO KEEP THAT IMAGE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE
AND IT'S HARD TO PRETEND TO BE SOMEBODY ELSE,
I MAY NOT BE THAT CLOSE TO PERFECTION LIKE OTHER PEOPLE DO
BUT WHO CARE'S?!
IT'S NOT THEM WHOM I LIVE FOR ANYWAY
WHAT MATTERS IS THAT I KNOW MYSELF AND I KNOW
HOW DO I LOOK LIKE INSIDE-OUT AND I'M WORTH IT
THIS IS ME AS WHAT THEY SAY. IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE MY WORST
THEN YOU DONT DESERVE MY BEST.